|Written By Nadine Gordimer(1923〜 ユダヤ系の南アフリカ人 ノーベル文学賞受賞者）|
Since she was attached to a rubber bag, the relationships between she and he changed. They loved each other, but she couldn't share the same bed with him, moreover, they couldn't talk their real problems. Oneday, she had her hair done then, he complimented her that she looked pretty.She felt he is a trustworthy husband(or lover?). However, she couldn't keep these situation lasting. She took pills in order that she would never wake up. But she was awake in a hospital. Her hand was in his.
It's the matter of decency.
She had no alternatives after the operation but had to carry such a rubber bag with her
all around for the rest of her life, which made her feel very lonely although her
lover was always with her. Even his devoted attitude was too much for her.Then what came
next ? She had her hair cutas she wanted to look beautiful to him at her final stage.
Then she took pills in order to sleep forever. She trusted that his love was great enough
to let her complete herattempt. But his love was much greater than she thought.
When she came back to herself, she felt his hand in hers ina hospital room.
The operation changed her life completely. After the any operation, one must feel very vulnerable
and skeptical about one's life. More over, she had to carry a "rubber bag" attached to her stomach. Since she had to carry own excretion, it made her more miserable and hopeless. She was fed up with the people trying to cheer her up. She couldn't love her partner the same way as she used to be. Then she decided to commit suicide in order to end her miserable life. But she failed it and awoke at the hospital room with her beloved one.
|Terminal summary ぽち|
They have mentioned a rubber bag once when they were reading newspaper a few years ago. At that time it seemed that it would never be related to them, but now she has the rubber bag attached to her body. Since
the operation her life and their relationship had completely changed. She had to carry her dirt around
with her in the rest of her life, and that made her desperate and miserable. He was there for her and tried to
make her feel better. But they couldn’t share their bed anymore and neither could their real feelings.
The empty conversations with lies made her lonelier and more miserable.
One day she commit suicide, leaving her note for him saying “Keep your promise. Don’t have me revived.”
Before she went into the hospital he promised that he would help her out of it if it gets very bad. But he
didn’t keep his promise. She opened her eyes in the hospital.
He was there with her.
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