We don’t know the reason why there were lots of deaths of our school.
The trees our children planted died. The herb gardens also died. The
gerbils, the white mice, and the salamander died. The tropical fish
were twisted and floating on the surface of the water. The puppy, which
a student helped it and brought to the classroom also died. We don’t
know why it died, maybe distemper. Its name was Edger, yes, my name.
Children named it after me and made lots of fun calling it. I didn’t
mind and I enjoyed that.
The Korean boy who was adopted through the Help the Children Program
died. We don’t know the cause of his death.
The children’s parents died: two heart attacks, two suicides, one drowning,
four car accident, and one was killed in a struggle with an intruder.
Of course, their grandparents also died more than ordinary rate I think.
Yes, our students, Matthew and Tony died when they were playing over
where they’re excavating for the new federal office building.
Maybe the school is something wrong, but I can’t see where is wrong,
I don’t see anything wrong with our school. Just a run of bad luck,
The children and I were depressed. We discussed deaths.
The children asked me to make love with Helen, who is our teaching assistant,
in front of them. I refused, but I kissed her on the brow and we held
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A chain of bad luck occurred at the school and Edger, the teacher,
and his 30 students were involved in.
It started with orange trees. Edger had the children plant orange
trees. He thought it was very educational for them to see how the
trees grow, and taking care of the trees was one of the ways to learn
about "responsibility." However things went otherwise. All
the trees died. The exact reason was uncertain.
Herb garden was also failure and in this case Edger thought the cause
might be overwatering. Many pets died, too. Gerbils, white mice, salamander,
tropical fish, and a stray puppy ....
A Korean orphan the class adopted through Help the Children program
died. Even some of the students themselves, their parents, grandparents
died due to various reasons. The class began to think there's something
wrong with the school, but Edger thought it was simply a chain of
One day they discussed life and death. Where did the dead go ? Nobody
knows. Which gives meaning to life, death or life ? Probably life
does. However as long as death is inevitable, it can be a measure
to make our mandane life to go in the direction of somewhere higher.
The children thought it was bloody shame and Edger agreed with them.
The children asked Edger and Helen (their teaching assistant) to demonstrate
how to make love so that they can confirm assertion of value. Edger
hesitated first but Helen embraced him. Then a new gerbil appeared
at the door. The children were very excited. What would happen to
the gerbil ? Would it be a optimistic future or pessimistic one ?
The tragedy happened in the school.
The children planted orange trees for the education so that they could
see how they grew, and learn the sense of responsibility and taking
care of the things. But all the trees died. Then, all the bets we had
died in order. I don' know why all the things around us passed away
like snakes, gerbils and salamanders. I was not surprised when the tropical
fish crooked and died.
One day, one of the student brought the puppy to school. The children
named Edgar, that is my name. They made fun of it but I didn't mind
being kidded. I knew what was going to happen with puppy. I gave dead
puppy to janitor before the children came to school in the morning.
And then, Korean orphan adopted in the class through the Help the Children
program died. We don't know the cause of death. It was a just bad luck,
I think, although some of kids' parents and grandparents, Matthew and
Tony died for certain reasons.
We had discussed it in the class. I couldn't answer where those people
and animals had gone.
Incidentally, the children asked to make love to Helen, our teaching
assistant. I refused of course, but they appealed they have never seen
it. We held each other. The children were excited.
Life goes as if nothing has happened. The meaning of death does not
give anything to life but life itself gives meaning to life.